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The A.M. Hours

by Liz Modesta Mendoza

88 pages; quality trade paperback (softcover); catalogue #02-0483; ISBN 1-55369-670-0; US$12.50, C$19.50, EUR12.70, £8.80

This book is the personal side of the great pretender. Even pretenders have a heart.

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About the Book INTRODUCTION WELCOME TO THE THOUGHTS OF MY EARLY MORNINGS. I WROTE THIS BOOK TO EXPRESS TO THE WORLD THAT EVEN IN THE MIND OF STRONG WILLED, STUBBORN, TEMPERAMENTAL, ..........AND EVERY THING ELSE THAT SEEMS NEGATIVE, TYPE OF PERSON, THERE IS ALWAYS A SOFT, LOVING, TENDER, EMOTIONAL SIDE, TO EVEN THE TOUGHEST HUMAN BEING. THIS IS A VERY PERSONAL SIDE OF ME, WHICH ISN'T SHOWN TO MANY PEOPLE, DUE TO, I HATE BEING TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF FOR MY GOOD SIDE, AND I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I LIKE TO BE THOUGHT OF AS THE HARD, ROCK THAT NO ONE CAN HURT, NO MATTER WHAT! I REALLY DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE HAVE TO SAY ABOUT ME, OR IF THEY EVEN LIKE MY WAY OF BEING. I'D PREFER TO HAVE PEOPLE DISLIKE ME FOR NOT UNDERSTANDING ME, RATHER THAN PEOPLE PRETENDING TO LIKE MY CALLOUS ATTITUDE, WHEN I FEEL DEFENSIVE, TOWARDS SARCASTIC, ARROGANT, SINGLE MINDED, UN-FOCUSED PEOPLE. I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW THAT I AM NOT AS EXPRESSIVE AS MOST PEOPLE. I TEND TO BACK AWAY FROM LOVE AND PAIN, IN MOST SITUATIONS, BUT THIS DOESN'T MEAN THAT I DON*T NEED LOVE AS ANYONE ELSE WOULD, OR THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYONE, AT ALL. I SIMPLY LIKE TO KEEP MY FEELINGS TO MYSELF, AND EVALUATE WHOM I FEEL IS WORTH MY TIME, AND LOVE. TOO MANY PEOPLE WANT SO MUCH FROM OTHERS AND DON'T REALLY FEEL THEY NEED TO SACRIFICE AS MUCH AS SOMEONE ELSE, FOR WHATEVER REASONS. I 'D LIKE TO BELIEVE THAT I DO AND HAVE SACRIFICED AS MUCH AS ANYONE ELSE, IF AND ONLY WHEN I FEEL IT IS WORTH IT. NOT EVERYONE IS WORTH WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER. SO IF YOU FEEL YOU CAN RELATE TO THIS FEELING, I HOPE YOU ENJOY MY EARLY MORNING THOUGHTS. SHHHHH! THIS IS BETWEEN YOU AND I! ENJOY!

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About the Author I'm just a Puerto Rican girl on a mission.

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Sample Excerpts

THE RAIN I SEE THROUGH WINDOWS

THERE'S A CERTAIN SCENT THE AIR WILL CARRY
AND A CHILL THAT'S BEYOND COMPARE
AS I RUN MY FINGERS ON THE GLASS
THE DROPS OF MIST REMAIN THERE
I SEE GRASS SO GREEN, WHILE NATURES NEW
AND HEAR THE WHISTLING OF THE TREES
THEN I LOSE MYSELF, WITH THOUGHTS OF YOU
ESCAPING INTO A FANTASY
THE RAIN I SEE THROUGH WINDOWS
IS A LINK TO THIS OTHER WORLD
STEPPING OUT OF ME, I GO AWAY
I BECOME THIS OTHER BEING
WHO CAN SAY THE THINGS, I WANT TO SAY
WHO CAN RUN WITH YOU SO FREE
WHO CAN OPEN UP, WHAT'S DEEP WITHIN
GIVE TO YOU ALL THAT'S IN ME
THE RAIN I SEE THROUGH WINDOWS
IS A PICTURE, I WALK THROUGH
WHEN I NEED TO LOVE, OR FEEL LOVED
EVEN IF, FOR A MOMENT OR TWO
I CAN SHARE A SMILE, LAUGHING FREE
I CAN MAKE ALL DREAMS REALITY
GETTING ALL I NEED, DEEP WITHIN
WITH NOTHING STOPPING ME
THE RAIN I SEE THROUGH WINDOWS
IS A REFLECTION, OF WHERE I WANT TO BE
IT'S UNFORTUNATE, I MUST RETURN
WAKING UP, FROM THIS PRECIOUS FANTASY

THE BOOK OF LOVE

EVERYONE HAS A STORY
EVERYONE HAS A PAST
THERE'S PROMISES THAT HAVE BEEN BROKEN
PROMISES NOT MEANT TO LAST
THE BOOK OF LOVE IS A FAIRYTALE
WE ALL WISH TO BELIEVE
THE END IS JUST A HEARTBREAK
THAT WILL CHANGE THE LIFE TO BE
THE BOOK OF LOVE IS A DREAM
IN WHICH WE WISH WE COULD BE
FOR EVERY CHAPTER, THERE IS AN END
WE NEVER SEE ETERNITY
I'D LIKE TO REWRITE THE BOOK OF LOVE
WITHOUT A PROMISE OR A LIE
I'D LIKE TO GIVE MY ALL TO SOMEONE
AND KNOW THEY'LL EXCEPT ME, JUST AS I
I'D WRITE WHAT REALITY IS, THROUGH STAGES
OF WHAT MAKES A LOVE GROW STRONG
OF RESPECT AND UNDERSTANDING
ACCEPTANCE OF OUR OWN WRONGS
THE BOOK OF LOVE SHOULD BE OF PEOPLE
WHO COME FROM DIFFERENT WORLDS
IT'S ABOUT SACRIFICE AND LOSING
AND STILL GAINING LIFE'S PRECIOUS PEARL
IT'S JUST FORGETTING WHAT HAS PASSED US
A CHANCE TO START AGAIN
IT'S LETTING GO OF ALL THE PAIN
SO YOUR HEART COULD LEARN TO MEND

ONE IN ONE MILLION

I'VE AVOIDED ANY DISILLUSIONS
TO LET GO, OF WHAT MAKES MY HEART WEAK
YET, WHEN MY THOUGHTS SOMEHOW ESCAPE ME
THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT YOU, THAT HAUNTS ME
IN YOUR SMILE I SEE THIS BEAUTY
THAT SO RARELY CAPTURES ME
IN YOUR EYES I'M SWEPT WITH ROMANCE
EMOTIONAL PASSION, NOT PHYSICALLY
SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR YOUR VOICE
IT FEELS AS IF YOU TALK TO ME
I WISH YOU'D STOP A MOMENT
TO THINK BACK AND REMEMBER ME
IT'S OVERWHELMING TO LOVE SOMEBODY
NOT UNDERSTANDING, HOW THIS CAME TO BE
YOU'D GIVE THE WORLD TO SHOW THEM
HOW PRECIOUS THEIR BEAUTY IS TO SEE
IN MY LIFE A MILLION PEOPLE
COME ACROSS MY PATHS BY DAY
NEVER BEEN THERE, A SINGLE BEING
SPELLING ME, IN SUCH A WAY
WHO CARES THAT I CAN'T TELL YOU
I CAN DAYDREAM EVERYDAY
YOU ARE THAT ONE, IN ONE MILLION
I'M THE LUCKY ONE "I SAY"
SO I SAY SORRY, FOR ALL THE INGRATES
FOR EVERY MILLION, TO A NONE
ANYONE WHO'S EVER HURT YOU
NOT REALIZING, YOU'RE WORTH TO LOVE
IT'S HARD TO TRUST ANYONE
THIS LESSON, I AS WELL HAVE LEARNED
KNOW THAT SINCERELY I DO LOVE YOU
WANTING NOTHING IN RETURN
ANYTHING THAT CAN BE GIVEN
YOU'VE ALREADY GIVEN IT TO ME
IN YOUR SMILE, THAT REMAINS SO LOVELY
IN MY VISIONS, WHILE DAYDREAMING
IF YOU WONDER, WHY I WRITE YOU
THINKING, WHY DO I SEE SO MUCH IN THEE?
IT'S AS SIMPLE AS I TELL YOU
YOUR SMILE BRINGS JOY TO ME
THEY SAY, EVERYTHING HAS IT'S MOMENTS
THAT FEELINGS TEND TO FADE
ONLY FOOLISH PEOPLE SPEAK IN THIS TONE
BECAUSE TO LOVE, MEANS EVERYWAY
I ONLY HOPE THAT SOMEONE LOVES YOU
THE WAY YOU WISH, TO BE ACCEPTED AS
IF NOT, THEN I MUST TELL YOU
FROM THIS POINT, I'M THE ONE WHO

The Empty Bed

I couldn't sleep for a while
I turned in my bed, restlessly
I'd go to work with lack of sleep
Literally, I was destroying me
So I went and purchased a new bed
Hoping, to change past memories
But today my bed's a lonely place
On my bed I do not sleep
The empty bed, is haunting me
It reminds me I'm alone
I have no friends, to understand
I need some love, at home
The sofa now, is my bed
With the TV. set on low
I've been asked, for how long will this be?
The answer is, I don't know
I spend my nights, lost in short dreams
Dreams, I wish to see come true
The truth is, if I sleep in my bed
Who's to say, I'll sleep the whole night through

THE BEAUTY IN THIS BEAST

MY CHILDHOOD WAS A NIGHTMARE
ONLY UGLINESS, MY EYES HAVE SEEN
I'VE BEEN TOLD THAT I'M UGLY
BY THE ONE WHO CLAIMED MY BEAUTY
SOME PEOPLE JUST CAN'T SEE
THE BEAUTY IN THIS BEAST
THEY PREFER TO SEE WHAT'S OUTSIDE
AND FORGET THERE'S MORE TO ME
THEY SAID I'M A LOST CHILD
I WILL NEVER SEE THINGS LAST
THE BEAUTY IN ME IS THE STRENGTH
I WILL HAVE, WHEN YOU ARE PAST
HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME
BLIND TO THE BEAUTY IN THIS BEAST
THE BEAST IS JUST A SAFEGUARD
WHO SHOWS NO PAIN AT ALL
THE BEAUTY IS ENTRANCE
I GIVE TO YOU, BEHIND THIS WALL
DON'T JUDGE MY IMPERFECTIONS
LOVE THE HONESTY, WITH NO DECEIT
THE FACT THAT I AM WORTH IT
LOVE THE BEAUTY IN THIS BEAST
IF UGLINESS IS ALL I AM
AND NO BEAUTY I HAVE, THAT'S TRUE
THEN THE BEAUTY IN THIS BEAST
DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU

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