LIVING WATER*
On my morning walk
a moment comes
when I feel the water of life
filling my cup.
It gives me strength.
It lifts me through the day.
But by evening
my portion is almost gone.
It is time to watch
the sparkling sky,
with its promise for tomorrow
and maybe, even more…
THE CARDINAL SINGS
The sun is warm on my back.
The grass is soft under foot.
“Pretty, pretty, pretty chirps
the cardinal I cannot spot
though trees are still bare.
I tread the ivy path into the wood
to find my sometime brook.
Now just a trickle amongst dead leaves.
the big gnarled oak still stands,
and the red bird sings on.
Not until I return to steps and
stretch my neck directly above,
does his tiny scarlet form pierce
blue sky and say,
Yes, spring is on the way!
Step by step long icy winter
stalked across the land
halting traffic and timid feet,
closing schools, stopping planes.
Still, life goes on.
But even long icy winters
have their blessings!
Cozy meetings at pastor’s house,
a dozen or so seeking souls
gather weekly to ponder
“Spiritual Direction,”
Henri Nouwen’s words,
“Wisdom for the Long Walk of Faith.”
We read, we pray,
we share our thoughts.
Intimately we talk of
God in our lives.
BEYOND ORION
Four windows bring light
into my back room slumber space.
Two look south, the others, west.
During milder seasons
foliage of great trees block
the night time sights both ways.
But oh, the glories of the cold
when Orion flies the skies
across my southern view.
Back to Conneaut I am born
now stargazing with Dad,
home at Grandmother’s house,
from a long job hunting trek
across the nation wide.
What a wondrous treat
to walk the sandy shore at eventide,
to gaze above at the changing dome,
yet recite so yearningly:
“Twinkle, twinkle little star.
How I wonder what you are
up above the world so high. . .”
ending nightly with fervent wish,’
Please dear God,
Find my daddy a job!
Seventy plus years have passed.
Other children come to mind.
Have their parents lost jobs?
Have they lost their homes?
Has someone taken them in?
Or are they cold and hungry,
looking longingly
on high?
TONIGHT
Tonight
listening to carols
gay and full of yearning,
loved ones of yesterday
pierce my heart.
A sometime stream
rolls down my cheek
tinged with both joy
and sorrow.
Ah, yes,
‘tis that time of year
when in the darkest sky
shines the brightest star
to light tomorrow.
Be not sad my soul.
Life is full
no matter where you are.
MY FATHER
OR
WHY I LOVE THE WOODS
Into the woods we went.
I was not yet nine.
The winter was cold
and he, without a job,
tried to explain the world to me
in that quiet secluded spot
devoid of people,
leaves or even grass.
A frozen pond
amongst bare trees
has marked the spot
that’s carried me
through years of hard times,
resentment, anger, distrust.
And pity, oh, yes, later pity
as his body wasted away,
eyes became sad
and voice was stilled.
Yet his hand scribbled on
with notes of advice,
“Use your head, Girl,” his last.
No churchman he.
It was decades after he died
when on a long highway I cried
in wonder and amazement
at what a blessing he’d been
exporting knowledge, tolerance,
love of music, beauty,
the urge to write and the woods.
Oh, the woods.
FOG
Evening fog in late March
lights up the city sky
beyond the Annisquam.
Mournful tone of horn
holds no fear for me.
Its low music speaks
of days gone by
when Donald was here
and in his quiet way
showed me wonders
that are Gloucester,
Cape Ann, and so much more.
We vacationed with our children,
his parents and all their kin,
taking in the beaches,
going for a swim.
We prowled the docks
around the harbor
watched the catch come in.
Empty masts stand stately
home at last
lined up along the bay.
.Here I am back again,
alone alas,
soaking up the marvels
of this community, its past.
Our children live nearby,
grandchildren and greats too,
except for one who joins us
now and then.
We live our different lives,
but will come together soon.
Growing in awareness
of others here and there,
we strive our best
FOG
Evening fog in late March
lights up the city sky
beyond the Annisquam.
Mournful tone of horn
holds no fear for me.
Its low music speaks
of days gone by
when Donald was here
and in his quiet way
showed me wonders
that are Gloucester,
Cape Ann, and so much more.
We vacationed with our children,
his parents and all their kin,
taking in the beaches,
going for a swim.
We prowled the docks
around the harbor
watched the catch come in.
Empty masts stand stately
home at last
lined up along the bay.
.Here I am back again,
alone alas,
soaking up the marvels
of this community, its past.
Our children live nearby,
grandchildren and greats too,
except for one who joins us
now and then.
We live our different lives,
but will come together soon.
Growing in awareness
of others here and there,
we strive our best .
DEATH OF A TREE
Our big spruce was blown over
in a storm last night.
When I went to bed
lightening bolted over the hill
across the street.
The trees and ocean were howling
like never before.
I wondered if I would be able to sleep.
Even the windows creaked.
Should I move to the front bedroom
where there were only two
instead of five? I decided not.
As the clamor increased
I crawled out from the blankets
made my way in the dark
to back windows where I saw
the two commemorative spruce
frantically waving in a cloudlit sky.
The house shook,
but I heard no resounding crunch
over the noise of wind and waves.
Maybe vegetation where
the larger tree landed
cushioned the sound
for when I sat up in the morning
an ominous void had replaced
the giant plant’s station
of eighty years.
And then I saw a huge boulder
just below the overturned root.
It was almost as large
as the only other gift
of the glacier in our yard.
The spruce had left
its own tombstone!
compensation for damaging
the granite wall
which sheltered buried tulip bulbs.
I grieve for the fallen tree,
the crumbled wall
and the vulnerable bulbs.
I wonder what will fill this space.
But life has a way of mending
that I am willing to embrace.
DEATH OF A TREE
Our big spruce was blown over
in a storm last night.
When I went to bed
lightening bolted over the hill
across the street.
The trees and ocean were howling
like never before.
I wondered if I would be able to sleep.
Even the windows creaked.
Should I move to the front bedroom
where there were only two
instead of five? I decided not.
As the clamor increased
I crawled out from the blankets
made my way in the dark
to back windows where I saw
the two commemorative spruce
frantically waving in a cloudlit sky.
The house shook,
but I heard no resounding crunch
over the noise of wind and waves.
Maybe vegetation where
the larger tree landed
cushioned the sound
for when I sat up in the morning
an ominous void had replaced
the giant plant’s station
of eighty years.
And then I saw a huge boulder
just below the overturned root.
It was almost as large
as the only other gift
of the glacier in our yard.
The spruce had left
its own tombstone!
compensation for damaging
the granite wall
which sheltered buried tulip bulbs.
I grieve for the fallen tree,
the crumbled wall
and the vulnerable bulbs.
I wonder what will fill this space.
But life has a way of mending
that I am willing to embrace.