Brave Tears

About the Book

I found myself in a desperate position of fear and of being overwhelmed by the repeated destructive secret elements of my life. I wasn’t able to tell anyone about these difficult times and I was incredibly sad and lonely, even when surrounded by people who ‘knew’ and ‘loved’ me. I was totally devoid of feeling towards myself or to anyone who should have mattered to me.

I was fortunate enough to find a therapist who understood the fears that I had and was patient enough with me during my ‘distraction’ tactics to help me find a way to ‘talk’ about the issues.

Sometimes the issues were skirted around and I had hoped she would ‘know’ what I was trying to say. Sometimes there was silence, the comfort of having someone whom cared how you felt, and wanted to make it easier for you was tremendously important.

The break-though in trying to tell her how I felt was in a letter written and given to her at the end of yet another difficult session. The thoughts had been raging around in my head for days, just flowed on to paper. Writing words I couldn’t speak aloud helped me express the feelings that I had.

Difficult issues sometimes just stick in your throat.

Whenever I felt low and distressed or high and happy I would get an urge to write about how I felt. It was like opening up my emotions as the words flowed, ‘it’ was out in the open.

About the Author

Sheila Jean Llewellyn was born to unknown parents and shortly after adopted into a professional family who already had an adopted son. Her childhood was both privileged and traumatic. She survived and as an adult has enjoyed much success professionally in her own right. Around age 50 she entered therapy as through several life crises her history caught up with her. This book is a moving account of her therapy journey so far and how she not only managed to survive a difficult childhood but also some tricky patches during her therapy. The writing of this book has been one of the ways she managed this process and is encouraging and refreshing even if painful at times.