It’s Not Easy Being Me

Chapter One First Day of School . When I first time I saw him, I was like who is this. The kids are going to joke him worst than they do me. They already talk about me every minute they are really going to joke him. Mr. Willis stood out for several reasons. First he was short and fat like a little elf. As the man walked by, I tried to divert my attention from him so I wouldn’t have to speak. His head is bald and shines as it hits the light. Not to mention he walks with a slight limp. I would not have a problem with speaking to him. I just don’t want to bring any extra attention to myself. I mean I want to fit in at Garvey, but to fit in you have to maintain a certain attitude. You have to act hard, like you don’t care about anybody. I tell myself I really don’t care how people feel. But I still do things to try to fit in. Even when I choose my clothes I am constantly thinking what will people say about them. When I look in the mirror when I think about what I am going to say, do anything it is like I am always wondering what people will think. But it is just like always my bad luck, I’m just standing there and the man walks up, “Excuse me young man.” he states. I just look thinking now this guy must shop at the good will or some kind of thrift shop because his clothes are out of style and old looking. I tried not to stare at the man but couldn’t help but notice his strange glasses and ugly shoes. See I seem to always attract people who other people see as outcast or lame. I guess it is something about me. I mean its crazy how even in my own head I don’t care about how most people feel. Still something inside me wants to be liked. I mean I sometimes look at people that everybody looks up to. Some of them are just mean people but because they look good, or got money and clothes everybody likes them even if they treat everybody else like their nothing. People like that are the ones that get all the girls. I sometimes wish that was me. Except I wouldn’t joke people and try to make them feel bad just because I was luckier than them. I just looked at the man like he was crazy. I mean he don’t know me. Why did he have to choose me of all people? Then Marcus states, “Who are you a substitute or something. Everybody knows the office is soon as you come in the building.” The groupies then immediately do their thing and laugh. They only do this because Marcus thinks he is the man. And the followers think they are someone important because they follow him. I then went pointed in the direction of the office. I knew Marcus would have something to say. “That’s just like a lame, trying to be the teachers pet.” The man then paused and looking like a drill sergeant and stated, “Thank You” Everyone watched as he walked away and then Marlon in the gang restarted their joking session. “Man were you get them shoes at I want some of them. That does alright don’t tell me I know the Good Will.” Instantly the crew starts laughing as another one stated, “Man he got them from the thrift market.” Next thing I know everybody started laughing pointing at my shoes hollering, “Look at Will shoes.” Lorenzo Morris is one of the tallest seventh grader at the school. He is actually taller than most freshman or sophomores in high school. He taller than most of the teachers and has a little hair on his face. Most people can’t believe that he is only twelve. Lorenzo is a true clown all he loves to do is talk about people. I think Lorenzo just talks about other people because is afraid people are going to talk about him. He is in the same situation as me. He wears old clothes and shoes also. His shoes might be name brand but they are still old. People just don’t talk about him because they afraid of his height and they know he will talk about them back. See middle school is just like the jungle, were the strong and weak just prey on the weaker or in my case the weakest. But I don’t let them haters get to me because I know it’s not were you start at it’s were you end at.