The Million Boxes Of A Heart

The Starting-out Box. A heart is made up of a million boxes- at least let's think of it that way. These boxes are all arranged in a pattern that should never be touched, manipulated, rearranged or corrupted. The nature of these boxes is set to guide us, direct us and show us the way of life, how pleasant it is, and how cruel it can be. All step-by-step. The Beginning box. This is birth. This is where we are introduced to this thing called life. Where we are guided every step of the way. I call this the flexable box. By nature, this is the biggest box inside everyone's heart. It is clean, neat and ready to be occupied. This is childhood. At this phase we are naturally clueless of everything around us and all the many curiosities that wrestle within us. And one thing i find vital about this box, something to always be careful about; its memory never erases anything. What is inside your Starting-out box? Amos 9:11-15. The Lord says, "A day is coming when i will restore the kingdom of David, which is like a house fallen into ruins... I will bring them home and they will rebuild their ruined cities and live there. They will plant vineyards and drink the wine; they will plant gardens and eat what they grow.'' The Lord your God has spoken. You are probably wondering, how did life come to this? Dating back at childhood your box was filled with nothing but happiness, warmth and peace. You recall all the joyful moments you spent with those who treated you well and left a mark in your heart. Now you look at life and compare both the times and lament, 'What did i do wrong?' Life has turned out to be so complicated. Something you never ever imagined as a child. All the happiness and smiles your box contains seems to be a fairy tail in this present life that you're faced with. At times you wish you didn't have to grow. You long for that old peace that reigned all day long as a child. You feel like all walls are coming down each day you grow. Even at night you still cry tears that no one understands cause only you know how much joy and peace childhood had compared to how life is now. You still don't understand why they had to go away and leave you all by yourself. Your Starting-out box still reminds you of a life you would trade in anything to obtain again. What happened? Why this much difference? When Job had had enough of the suffering he was going through, the Bible tells us he broke the silence and began cursing the day he was born. "O God, put a curse on the day i was born; put a curse on the night i was conceived. Turn that day into darkness, God. Never again remember that day; never again let light shine on it. Job 3:2 Growing up life must have been something for job, can't say good; can't say bad. But i know through hard work he had all he ever wanted, every valuable asset. But all of a sudden he finds himself faced with this horrible tragedy of a loss of children, livestock and his health on the edge. And so he curses the day in which he was born. He curses childhood. He curses his Starting-out box. Why? It's Simple: However life turns out to be in the future, it will still, and always will be haunted by the good and bad memories of childhood. Perhaps in his case these sufferings reminded him of a life he once experienced as a child. A life of pain, and a life of struggle. A life where peace was nothing but a myth. Or, perhaps childhood remembered him of the love he received, the protection that once surrounded him. Suppose birth stirred up the memory of those loving arms that cannot and will never hold him again. Warmth that will never comfort him again, and peace that will never be found again. See when we are faced with a dreadful situation all these thoughts come to life and toment us because they show us a way into happiness but happiness that just won't be obtainable no more. Sometimes it's the opposite, these memories can take us back to that part of the box where pain was all we knew. That part where smiling was just not possible. They can cultivate that hate which we'd believed to have faded with time. They can make us relive every moment of that troubling part of childhood. This box sure does contains vital stuff! There's a film i love titled, The Prestige. Just a movie about magic. I learnt some things from that movie; 'that every great magic trick consist of three important parts or acts. First part is called the Pledge; the magician shows you something ordinary. A deck of card, a bird or a man. Things that your mind is familiar to. He will show you this object so that you inspect it to confirm that it's real, normal and ordinary. But of course it probably isn't. The second act is called the Turn; the magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking; you don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. Now the trick has been pulled, but you wouldn't clap yet, because making something disappear isn't enough. You have to bring it back. That's why then in every magic trick there's a third act; the hardest part. The part we call the Prestige. That's the part with the twists and the turns, where lives hang in the balance. And you see something shocking that you've never seen before.'