Forgive Me When I Falter

About the Book

The book poetically looks at a few failings and near failings in order to shed some light on the why, when, and how of failure. It defines failure as something rather dramatic that many times has consequences far beyond the initial happenstance. The book is not concerned with human or societal failure. It is not concerned with mechanical, chemical, or electrical failure. It is, however, concerned with personal faltering rather than failure. The book is concerned with faltering, which is a common thing that happens more frequently than failing. Faltering is a wavering or hesitating condition that precludes failure and usually prevents failure. Faltering is not always bad. It is usually when little problems surface before a big problem happens. Faltering most often is a learning situation and should be considered a good thing. Thank God people falter before failing.

About the Author

Phillip sees many negatives as actual positives, and without each, there can be no balance in the universe. He sees life flowing as if human beings are electrons passing through godly conductors seeking physical balance in the universe. Each element in nature wishes to have its correct electron number, and when the balance—of electrons, neutrons and protons—is interrupted through adding or subtracting electrons, it is up to each electron to find a way back home.

He thinks we are like an electron in a battery where life is jerking us around from positive to negative to create an electrical charge and potentially do some work. The only problem with the analogy is when the battery is in perfect balance—all electrons being where they belong—the battery is dead. Then again, maybe his analogy is dead-on correct.

Phillip sees himself constantly out of balance and constantly trying to find electron equilibrium—perfect balance. He believes that he will eventually find perfect balance in Heaven, but until then he strives to learn about his own created elemental universe. He admittedly falters frequently in the illuminating life process. He, however, thinks that he occasionally helps maintain the universe as a thoughtful electron in the element copper.

He believes that too many people see themselves as a lone electron in the element hydrogen—hydrogen being the lightest and simplest of all elements—and yet hydrogen is the most abundant element in the universe. They see themselves as a simple electron trying to find a place in the simplest of all elements, and not just faltering to find stability but also failing to find usefulness.

He thinks of himself as universally unimportant—kind of like a hydrogen electron—but individually extraordinary for he helps cause and sustain creation with other unimportant copper electrons.

Phillip thinks about many negative things so that he can live positively. He considers what could go wrong before it happens. He falters in his mind before faltering physically. He wishes physical and/or mental faltering before ultimately failing. Of course, this is not always possible, and bad things occasionally happen, but he keeps on keeping on as if that foolish electron persona will never find perfection and die.